Caring.

There's a time in life when you grow up and realize that its time to stop caring what other people think of you.
Because if everyone went through life waiting for approval from others, we'd still be living in the stone age.
No development, no nothing.
You know how superman's weakness is kryptonite?
Well mine is caring too much.
Yup. That's me.
So i've made a decision....a rather drastic one.
My dearest friend helped me as well. She's an inspiration in my life and i don't know if i could go through some things without her there.
She's beyond the definition of a true friend.
So i'm going to say no.
This is gonna hurt some people. Actually two in particular but i need to do it.
And i need to know that i'll be in a situation that grows me.
Life isn't all fun and games,
Life isn't a movie.
And i'm not too sure someone in particular, realizes that.
And i can't sit around waiting for the time that he does.
I'm terrible at doing these sort of things.
But if he reads this, this is what i want to say.


Dear Friend,
Its been very good getting to know you. We sure have had some good times together.
I'll never forget that.
I took a lot of risk allowing myself to fall for you.
It was only momentarily as i realized, me ever dating you would hurt someone else....my friend.
So how long have i been pretending to like you?
One week.So far.
Why didn't i tell you?
I don't want to break your heart. I....I.....I can't be the girl you want me to be because that's not me. I'm real. I'm not a cut-out from High School Musical.
I'm not perfect. And i'm afraid you've put me on a pedastal.
I'm too up high that i can't see the ground below.
I hate me at the moment so i won't mind if you do too.
Please realize that this is for the best.
We're both going separate paths at the moment and it only makes sense if we cut any connection between us.
I dont expect you to forgive me or to even talk to me but, I'm sorry.
Sorry for not fulfilling any potential duties of a girlfriend.
Sorry that you might not even read this.
Sorry for ever liking you in the first place.

From,
Me.


Quote?
"Caring is my downfall. And it will always be my weakness."
That's my own.